Do You Feel Me?

I have always tried to be as open and honest as I can with others on my social media accounts while keeping the more private details to myself. So, people tend to think they know me well when in reality there is still so much they don’t know about me. I suspect that is true with many of us. We share the parts of ourselves on social media that we think others will enjoy seeing and hearing about, but keep so much of ourselves unspoken. I also tend to share about my personal struggles with depression, anxiety and self esteem issues. Which feels very intimate to others, but when it comes to sharing the darker sides of those equations I tend to hold back. I feel we should always keep some things to ourselves never to share with others.

So how do I decide what to share and why do I share a lot about myself to others? To start off if what I want to share about myself is something I would be comfortable with being overheard by a random person then I share it online. If it is something that I would only feel comfortable telling my son or my mother or my boyfriend then I’m not going to share it with the public. Even then what I would tell to my son or my mom would be different than what I would share with an intimate partner. Secondly, I chose to share certain sensitive details about myself to the public in hopes that someone out there will read my words and know they aren’t alone in their struggles. Too many of us feel as if WE are the only person who could possibly be struggling with an issue when statistically that isn’t very likely.

There are many reasons why others don’t feel comfortable sharing their issues and struggles with others. Perhaps they were raised in a household where expressing and sharing their feelings wasn’t possible for one reason or another. Perhaps their personality just plain makes it hard for them to express such thoughts and feelings. Maybe they feel as if sharing that part of themselves publicly wouldn’t be good for their careers. There are so many variables as to why we don’t talk about the things that weigh on our shoulders everyday. I share my struggles in hopes that those people will read them and feel a little less alone in this world. I know I hate feeling alone in my struggles so talking about mine to the world is my way of reaching out to others in hopes that I can be there for them in some small way.

I don’t claim to know how to always “fix” the issues I talk about in my daily life, but I do try to share what works for me in order to live a life that doesn’t make me miserable. On Facebook those that I “friend” on there are all people I know in real life minus the celebrities I chose to follow on there. Also, I will only accept friend invitations from those that I feel will bring a positive contribution to my life in one form or another. If I feel your personality is one I can’t trust I don’t friend you. I deal with enough negativity inside my own head I don’t need a toxic personality from someone online adding to it. Because I try to chose friends I can trust on there it makes it easier for me to feel comfortable sharing certain private details about myself to them.

This blog was meant to be a place for me to share in more detail my thoughts and struggles in my daily life. Unfortunately, I’m also a total procrastinator. Insert look of chagrin here. I still hope to write more about my daily life and it’s happenings if just to capture memories to look back on later. I also want to share just random thoughts and funny happenings so this doesn’t end up being a place of just heavy thoughts. I haven’t really told others about my blog so I have no idea who is actually reading this, but I hope I’m at least not boring you with my words and you haven’t regretted coming across it. So, dear reader, I hope you are able to get some enjoyment out of my posts and now you know a little bit more about why I choose to write about what I do. I will also try my best to write more in the future. Until then I hope your day is a good one today. If it’s not, know that tomorrow is a new one with a fresh start attached to it.